Heavenly Waters
‘Bao Gong’ meaning palace of child or what we formally know as the uterus is considered this extraordinary organ ‘this palace’ in Chinese Medicine.
I remember the day I got introduced to this uterus of mine. I was age 15 at High school on a casual clothes day where I was excitingly wearing a tight baby blue good old supre skirt. I was sitting in the sick room contemplating both the immense pain I was experiencing and on the other hand having to contact an available parent to come and rescue me from what was once my blue skirt to now a violent red including the 90’s retro fabric chair I was sitting on. I felt like I just been run over by a truck. Safe to say first impressions of my period, sucked.
When connecting with my mother on this somewhat new rite of passage, to look for comfort in this new chapter I received words like “you poor thing, the pain is a curse you have inherited our family genes, periods are awful, sucks to be a woman” and from there the body shaming intensified well into my teens because of this view.
From there I joined my fellow girlfriends every month in the pain, hate towards my body, tampons, pads, hot water bottles, nurofen, sickness and shaming of my dear heavenly waters (the eastern name for your cycle).
Eventually the body shaming took a turn and I lost the ability to healthily regulate my menstrual cycle. I then jumped on the band wagon of suffering fertility issues alongside once again my fellow girlfriends blaming this confused body, suffering miscarriages and unfortunately the immense grief I endured of losing two of my children to stillbirth.
My relationship to these phases and my cycle in particular became something I needed to control, at the same time knowing the future holds ultimately a lack of control as one day I will have to endure the way society labels it as the ‘dreaded menopause.’
My studies of Chinese medicine, and having the gift to carry life has been such a big eye opener for me and being a woman.
I have learnt that we as palace walkers, uterus holders, mothers, women, goddesses & girls that we need to nourish this body deeply, these phases and this rite of passage is OUR GIFT!
Each phase of wombanhood should be a blessing. How to nourish our bodies during our heavenly waters, to plant the seed (if desired) for fertility, to grow a child fully nourished mind, body, spirit and the second spring as we invite the innate wisdom of wombanhood into our transition of menopause this should all be dealt with such reverence and a deep tone of love.
Inspired by my wisdom, my teachings and my gained knowledge into these phases, how to nourish, how to heal, how to embrace your palace.
#ladiesletsgo